The sun just peek above the rooftop. the day just begun.
I have love him, in silence, deep in my unconscious mind. no one should know. NO ONE. Keeping it to myself, I want to let God decide my fate. my love.
Is it long enough? or I am the one who couldn't control myself. For more thn 5 years I've wait for him. and when I found him, he is still the same, nice, kind and just like what he use to be. But one thing I can never know is his heart.
Who had his heart? to Whom he kept it? Did I even had a chance? I can somehow feel that he is not with me. never is. and not going to be.
I never wanna poke my head into his personal business cause I'm afraid to learn the truth. What if he already had someone else. But I need to know. so, I check out his facebook, and feeling like half my heart is being pull harshly from where it suppose to be.
I had to let him go. He is not for me. But if I do that, I will die, cause he had half of my heart. So, I can't let him go. But, I can't love him. I can't love someone that does not love me. Cause it will hurt me, kill me, make me feel lost. But...
In the end I have to let him go...
let him go..
Slowly..
I will let go..
